Doodling in the parlor

Every now and then, when I am really frustrated (which is often), I organize everything in my immediate environment, and then I usually feel better. Yesterday, I did just that, and while fumbling through old things I came across my old sketch book. It is no surprise that I found this drawing, which I sort of wish was an etching.

This is how I have been feeling these days. The stress of my commissioned painting (still in progress), getting prepared to go back to New York, finding an apartment (still in progress), and getting ready for next semester's workload. Agghhhh!!! My head should not be on my neck in this photo, but it is. I wonder if I am really ready for this thing called life. 

Ice sculpture

Sometimes I feel that I once lived in a fairy tale. Somehow, this feeling of nostalgia always finds its way into my artwork. I made this sculpture at the end of my last semester and nearly forgot it was collecting dust in a storage room. The process of making this sculpture was painful, and transporting it from New York to Chicago was even more painful. It's also not exactly complete. I initially planned to wire it and it would be functional. But now looking at it, I can't feel any other way than how I feel about most of the art I create. It's so beautiful to me, not because I created it, but because it now exists without all of my intentions and expectations. I planned for it to be one thing and it ended up being another. Not all art should necessarily be this way, but it is nice when it happens. 

I'm back! As of now, unfortunately, my camera is no longer working:( Hopefully that will change for my upcoming birthday.

The good news is that I am well into working on a painting I was commissioned to do for one of my mother's close friends. It is very large, and at the moment, my arms are very tired from reaching up to the canvas. Since she knows very little about painting, she gave me few restrictions. Her words exactly: "Paint something abstract, something treelike, with lots of intense colors". Although that is completely opposite of my usual drawn ornate Victorian interiors, I am happily working in her direction. I'm excited about it because I now feel life slowly breathing back into me. I wished for rest and relaxation over my summer and  I quickly became restless. I am now anxious to get back to New York and be overwhelmed by classes. Being stressed out seems to suit me.  

 I can't think of much else in my life, or much else I am capable of sharing but pictures will soon be on the way!!

Hello! It has been some time but I have not forgotten you. I have been falling into the depths of obscurity again but there is a slight crack of optimism in me this time. Summer has begun and I hope I will be at my most creative this time around. Last summer was terrible and I had fallen into a very deep depression. I am determined to be out of my rut this time and only be productive. I have no posts now but I will soon. I wont promise but blogger you'll just have to have faith.

Bone rendering

I did a study of a skeleton long ago and thought it was worth posting. Enjoy.

More artwork